The Watch – Part 134:

The shower is a wondrous place. It doesn’t matter what time of day it is, as soon as the water hits your head, your mind flares up and starts thinking about stuff. Be it random arguments that you know won’t happen but would be nice if they did just so that you can win, or philosophical questions that you can’t help but get roped into to try and discover the answer.

For me, I lost myself thinking about what the Magician said earlier about the watch having secrets. It’s a no-brainer that this watch has secrets. It would be weird if it didn’t. I never thought that this watch would attach to me and grant me the ability to do anything I want. I was merely only going to see what it looks like before I go and see if I could hunt down the person who sent it to me.

I can think of three secrets off the top of my head: I do not know who sent this watch, who created it, or who had it before me if anyone did. Three secrets that I doubt I would find the answer any time soon. There are so many more secrets that this watch has, I can just tell. But do I really need to know them? I mean, I can do everything that I want, so surely I can just keep doing that. I don’t have to dive deeper into how the watch’s mechanics. Just look at all of the things that I have done so far.

But, wouldn’t it be good to know at least some secrets? If I happened to stumble across an opportunity to know something more about the watch, would I take that? Well, something like that might never come round again so I guess I would. Would I actually actively go and search for any secrets? I don’t know. Maybe not. They’re secrets, meaning I won’t know whether they are going to be beneficial to me or not, and I don’t particularly want to uncover something that would damage what I have. I’ve already done so much damage on my own, I don’t need any third party adding anything.

Another thing that is playing on my mind is how many people know of the watch and are hunting it. How many people are going to turn up and confront me, fight me, bring me to my knees, defeat me, take the watch and then do what they want? There’s a strong possibility that they are going to be stronger than Magician, and will I be able to stop them from taking the watch? Will I have to know one of the secrets to stop them? Will they even be coming here to take the watch but to just torment, have a bit of fun and I’m going to be the only person that can stand up to them. With an infinite number of parallel universes, alternate realities, and possibly even higher dimensions, that possibility is much higher than my mind can comprehend properly.

I’m over-thinking this way too much. I’m building my nervousness and worry up too much. I can’t stay in this state of mind; I might as well not do anything, and if I’m not doing anything, then I might as well give up my ownership of the watch.

At this moment, however, with the damage that I have caused, would giving up my watch be a good thing? I don’t want to lose my best friend. I don’t want to cause any damage, and if more and more people are coming to try to take my watch, there can be a lot of damage, and I’ll be responsible for that. It was because I have the watch that this world is in danger, and if I won’t be able to stop whoever is attacking, then… I don’t want to think of the consequences. I don’t necessarily believe in destiny, but if it does exist, then I want some questions answered. Is the watch meant for me? Am I supposed to complete some task before I can give it up? Am I supposed to hand it off to someone, maybe the person who it is destined for? How annoying would it be if it was destined for Magician?

I don’t know whether I will be able to handle the pressure. The constant knowing that at any point, someone can come and attack me. And if judging by the sudden appearance of Magician, then it could literally be any time, and that might be damaging on many levels. As well as putting pressure on me, it’s putting pressure on Amy, Tom, Alex, and anybody else that might one day find out about the watch. Stress affects everyone in many different ways, and I can’t let that happen to them. And what about those that don’t know about my watch? How many more instances like the one with Magician will I have to go through? I just can’t allow any of that to happen. So is giving up the watch a good thing? Or, is this a test? Why would it be a test? Surely it is my decision on whether I want to keep or discard my watch? Maybe I am meant to have this watch? Maybe there’s a much bigger story for me? Maybe there is such a thing as destiny and all I have to do is continue as I am and let things take their own course?

I don’t want to discard my watch and something bad happens as the result of it. And I don’t want to keep my watch and something bad happens as the result. I don’t know what to do. What I do know is that whatever decision that I make, I know that I have friends that will support me. Amy is willing to stand by my side no matter what, and that is something I just cannot ask for.

There are no words to describe how awesome it is to have these abilities, to travel in time, to gain superpowers. It was absolutely awesome in every sense of the word when I saved that world from that maniac. I felt like I was finally doing something right, showing myself that I can do so much when I’m not being nervous, and I have the watch to thank for that. There are several pros, and several cons, and from looking at the bigger picture, the cons are heavier than the pros, and for that reason, I firmly believe that I must give up this watch to keep this from happening again and, more importantly to keep my friendship with Tom. I know that it is going to be hard to adjust back to normal life, but it’s a small price to pay considering the consequences that can arise from keeping it.

My train of thought was interrupted with knocking on the bathroom door.

‘Yeah,’ I called from the shower.

‘Pizza’s here,’ Amy called through. ‘Are you alright?’

‘Yeah, I’m good,’ I said. ‘I’ll be down in a minute.’

TO BE CONTINUED…

Thanks for reading

Antony Hudson

(TonyHadNouns)