It’s nearly impossible to describe what is going through my head.
I feel strange; that’s all I can say. That is a description, therefore not
impossible to describe what is going through my head. To elaborate on that, is
impossible. All I can say is that I feel strange. I can’t say anything more.
I’ve never felt more strange in all my life. I’ve been throwing that phrase
around a lot lately. ‘In all my life’. Is that accurate. Well, considering I
have never felt more confused than ever, then yes. I’ve never not understood
anything as much as now.
‘Do you know what
will happen when I activate the procedure to harm your friends?’ he asked.
‘I don’t
understand how you can expect me to know that if you have never explained that
before,’ I said.
‘Your friends
will suffer an electric shock. How intense that electric shock will be all
depends on how much you are willing not to answer my questions.’
‘And you think
that by just expecting me to give in you are going to get what you want. Are
you aware that I can do anything I want? You said so yourself that no one or no
thing will stand in my way.’ At least, I think he did. Did I say that to
myself? Does it matter? No…?
‘I would have
thought that you would do anything to save your friends. You do care for them,
don’t you?’
‘What sort of
question is that?’
‘So you do.’
‘I do.’
‘Then answer my
questions.’
‘No.’
‘Do you believe
that you can combat my inconsistency?’ That feels like an important question.
That sounds as if there is something actually creating the inconsistency. Does
it? I still haven’t found that all-important question. I need to find that. Why
haven’t I yet? I know that it’s there, staring me in the face. Maybe it isn’t
actually that important but just feels as if it is. If I find it, then I will
be able to know whether it is important or not. I was sure of myself that it
was important earlier. Was I? Maybe.
‘Are you thinking
that I won’t be able to?’
‘Inconsistency is
straightforward if you know how it works. By making someone confused, they will
then heed to your every command.’
‘And is that what
you are doing here?’
‘Maybe.’
‘So are you going
to hurt my friends?’
‘Are you going to
answer my questions?’
‘Are we going to
keep going around in circles?’
‘Are you going to
allow us to?’
‘Maybe.’
I’m missing
something else here. As well as not being able to see – find – that question,
there’s something else that I’m not seeing. There’s something else that… Are we
having more coherent conversations, or rather are we speaking better sentences
that before. No, I don’t think that can be seen. Man, if anyone does ever write
a story about what is happening here, I pity that person, and the people
reading it. I wonder how long they would be able to go before they start asking
the question, ‘what the heck is happening?’ They may have already asked that.
They may have given up because no publisher is ever going to read it. Why am I
suddenly thinking about my life being inside a book? Actually… So far, thinking
about being in a book has been the only understandable thought within all of
this. Am I in a book? No, that would be absurd. Would it? Maybe.
‘Can you help me
find a particular question?’
‘Is that the
question you have been searching for?’ Is it? No. I said that I would instantly
know when I’ve found it. Did I? Yes. Maybe. I don’t understand. I haven’t said
that in a while.
‘Maybe the
question is hidden somewhere within the events that have just only passed
earlier… What?’
‘Maybe the
question is hidden within what happened earlier… What?’
‘Maybe the question
is… Maybe the question I’m looking for is… Maybe I already came across it
before but didn’t recognise it… Maybe…
‘You haven’t hurt
my friends yet.’
‘Do you want me
to?’
‘No.’
‘Then I won’t.’
I don’t
understand.
…
I don’t
understand…
I feel… Strange.
I feel…
Different.
I feel… Feelings.
So many inconsistent feelings. So many. I… I…
‘What is that
question? What am I
missing? What is
happening?'
‘What… My head…
Things are… Clicking into place... Maybe.
I don’t
understand.
…
I don’t understand.
‘I don’t
understand.’
‘Who are you?’
‘Who are… are… am
I?’
‘Who am I?’
‘Why do I want to
know who I am? I know who I am. Do I? Maybe…’
I’ve never been
more confused in my entire life. My head… Feels… strange… as if… something’s…
inside…
What’s that
question? Will it help? Why haven’t I had a coherent conversation with him in a
while? How long will this last?
‘What was it like
when you travelled to here?’ he asked.’
‘You already
asked that question.’
‘Maybe.
‘Who are you?’
‘Where are you?’
‘Where am I?’
That’s new.
I’m sitting in a
room, on two chairs, facing him and a screen that is showing my friends, Amy
and Tom lying on a bed of their own. Outside of this room is a corridor that
leads to an elevator that you can go down into a much larger room full of
advanced technology that creates realistic-looking holograms of dragons and
knights and cities. An incredible array of soundwaves that can mess with your
head and make you think sporadically. After that room with the city is another room
with five doors that you must answer certain questions correctly, and before
that is a room where you have to answer certain riddles correctly, and before
that is a room where you have to find the odd one out, and before that is
another concrete room where the walls aren’t actually made of concrete but are
a hologram – which, now that I think about is his way of telling me what was to
come – and before then I was standing in the middle of nowhere, looking for my
friends. I inserted the necessary commands that would analyse Amy’s DNA because
I didn’t want to analyse Tom’s puke, and I pressed the button that would take
me to where she was…
Except…
‘How did I end up
here?’
TO BE CONTINUED…
Thanks for reading
Antony Hudson
(TonyHadNouns)
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